I know I have to leave..

I'll leave sdk..

I'll plan my future which will not relate to sdk..

I'll get back to the Adeline Chang that everyone used to know..

I think I'll give myself a deadline which is my 21st birthday..

by then, I'll make a new wish..

a renewed Adeline...

humbly asking for all my dear frens and family forgiveness for Adeline did not live up to all of your expectation but leaving herself in a difficult situation..

Adeline wants a new life..

a life with all strangers..

all the best..

I hope all of you will pray for me in your own way..

I just don dare to face the fake faces in sdk anymore..

Cheers,
Adeline
1814

adeline is going crazy real soon..

i need someone to talk to..

i need some support..

God.. are You with me?

Be honest to you, if i can choose to die without any worry..

i'll do so..

刚看完这套好戏《幸福的抉择》。。
一口气从第16集看到20集。。
完了。。
幸福的结局也上映了。。

看到失而复得的爱情。。
看到男主角在失去后才学会了珍惜。。
看到女主角对男主角的执著。。

这套戏让我留了不少眼泪。。
有一幕，男主角回到属于他们的房间。。
再次拿起属于他们的相片。。
再次躺在属于他们的床。。
再次回想起属于他们的回忆。。

这一幕，真的让我的心痛了。。
想到自己了。。
不知何时，属于我们的照片已不再他的桌子上了。。
不知何时，属于我们的床也已成了他独自拥有。。
曾经属于我们的衣橱，现在也只剩她的衣服了。。

想念他的笑。。
想念属于我们的床，我们的味道。。
想念一打开衣橱都有属于我们俩的东西的感觉。。
想念一打开房间的门就能看到我们一张张在桌上的照片。。
想念在房间里，属于我们的浓情蜜意。。

戏中的男女主角完成了他们之间的承诺。。
那，属于我们未完成的承诺呢？
会继续实现吗？还是我永远都不会得到。。
我们曾经承诺过彼此的未来。。
虽然我需要她为我实现。。
但我想他再也不需要我为他实现了。。

“有的人说不清哪里好，但就是谁都替代不了”

也许我就是世界上最傻的傻瓜。。

还爱着的谨恩
 

I once scolded "Him" with the word "You!! Foolish Man!!"

Not long ago, I read a passage from bible saying that we shouldn't scold anyone with the word "foolish"..
If you do so, you're just a step to the hell..

After reading that, I bowed down my head..
and started with my humble prayer to confess my sins and ask God for His forgiveness..

And now, I think I should ask for Your forgiveness because I did something which is real wrong..
and im sure I hurt you so much with that word..

Sorry!
I no I cant turn anything back..
but sorry is what I can say so that I feel better..

Thanks so much if you're able to forgive me..
Is okay if you cant..
I understand..

Cheers,
Adeline
2017

it's Sunday!

should I be happy?
I found that..
there's not even one day in the week I can wake up later than 7am..
of course, it's due to my work..
and Sunday morning I have to get up early for church~

feel so lazy to update all the parties I had during new year eve and some outing after that..

so pls do visit my besties's blog..
they are:
Hing's blog
n..
Jaye's blog

enjoy!!

will had a busy yet enjoyable week ahead!

cheers.
Adeline

最近，我觉得我只能用“傻”来形容自己。。
在上个星期，我才发觉自己站在原地已有4个月的时间了。。
从没离开过。。
心还在想自己已经离开了，怎知道还在这。。
无聊的，自己一个人站着，等着。。

对我来说，2008年的确不是什么好年。。
未免也太多风波。。
只能给自己55%，勉强及格。。

近来，听了很多，看了很多，体会了很多。。
希望朋友们的一些经验之谈和鼓励，
能真的让我潇潇洒洒地离开这容不下我的地方。。
我也真的希望能做会最原始的“郑谨恩”。。

为我祈祷哦！

对了，大概两星期前，
我这从不和陌生人在网上交谈的人。。
竟然认识了一位趣味相投，并且同星座的朋友。。
她的生日也只是比我早两天罢了。。

我相信她必定知道我说的人是她。。
如果你有在看，
我很想和你说声“谢谢”。。
你真的帮了我不少。。
很开心认识你。。
除了谢谢，我大概想不到还能说些什么了。。
感恩！

Time for some update on my new year eve celebration!

oops.. before that..
I'll do a bit on Joanne's departure to Singapore on 27th Dec 2008
We gave her a surprise by sending her off at the airport..
this is the few of us..

the girls..

pls do spot the difference at Joanne's eyes!
yeah! she cried when she was about to leave..
because this year she wont be back for cny!!
we gonna miss you dear Joanne..
all the best~
wish you a happy new year too!

Next~!

New Year Eve Celebration..

My night start with a celebration organised by the church.
had some games, sharing, presentations and exchanging gift~!
the church's new year eve celebration ended around 10.15pm..

My night doesn't end here okay!!
I rush home with my little wira..
change my attire from a sporty look to a party dress..
and I step on my little wira's oil pedal to "Citiclub"
of course, I met up with all my besties there!!

I receive a special phone call that night..
so surprise but she helped me to sort out my problem..
and this phone call released my burden and gave me a good kick start for 2009!!
Thanks to "her"..

As I'm late to meet them up,
I missed some of the games that night..
So, maybe you guys have to see Hing, Jaye, Tzun or Timo's blog for a detail process..

Here are some of the picture of the party!
Sit back and enjoy!

ade & Timo

dancing and fooling around "crazily"

the human train..

 colourful papers on the floor..

see! im trying to pick those papers and throw on aunt! Aunt Joanne, Im sorry~

This is what happened to Aunt Jennifer! Happy New Year!

Hing, Tzun, Timo, Siah, Ade, Jaye

the 3 of us! where's Joanne?

3 of us + Aunt Florence (Pretty Woman~)

Timo & Ade

Tzun & Ade

Siah & Ade

Hing & Ade

oops! Jaye!! Michelle! forgot to take a picture with you gals~ sorry.. don't angry..

After "Citiclub"..
It was around 1.30am..
We had our next round at Adeline's house, My House!!

And it's Timo's pro time again..
another drinking game..
did not take much pictures..
but only this..

 the only glass of sky juice belongs to Siah.. He is such a responsible driver~ *CLAPS*

We ended our new year celebration at 3am..

The next day,

SEAFOOD FEAST!

the 10 of us..
allow me to name us all!
Girls: Ade, Hing, Jaye, Michelle, Evan
Boys: Siah, Tzun, Timo, Yapp, Khen

 Ade, Michelle, Hing

we had 8 dishes that night, but I'll show you some of them..

 Ikan Panggang

 "Sha Bak"

Crabs

 "Yok Choi Gei" -- Thumbs up for the soup!

Steam Prawn.. Simple dish but my favourite~!

Hereby, I would like to thank dear Jaye for warm serving..

Alex, don't scold us! She did it willingly..

I also want to say thank you to Siah!!
He is such a good fren, a concern fren..
He knows what I need the whole meal!!
Thanks Siah~!

Then, we headed to Encore for second show~!
Thanks dear Michelle for the treat~!
Since you're leaving soon, Im sure I will miss you a lot!
Not forgetting, ah tzun who will be leaving real soon..
Miss you lots.. and see you again on CNY~!

Happy New Year~!

heart ache

tears rolled

nose block

need help

save me

real sad

crying

Adeline
0210

everyone is doing summary, or post mortem on 2008..

so im here to do one for myself..

last night, I went to church for a new year eve celebration..
a pastor of our church distributed piece of paper and pencil to everyone..
and she wanted us to answer 2 simple questions..
here it goes!

1. How much will you give to yourself based on the year 2008? (in form of percentage)
2. What is the factors that caused you did not get 100%?

Adeline's answer..

1. 55%
2. :( (I drew this)

as conclusion, 2008 is not really a good year to me..
luckily, I received a call last night which makes me at least ended this 2008 with a beautiful full-stop..

no more worry.. no more fear..
may God bless each and everyone of us!

Happy New Year~!